After sleeping on the situation, I decided to say NO. A little white lie got me out of being alone with Jackie. I feel bad for choosing this path but I cannot place myself in the spot of being hated by anyone involved in this messy relationship problem. Jackie, or Jeremy, it doesn't matter..... Who I see in the mirror is who I'm accountable too in the long run.
If Jackie wants to play with me, it will have to be done properly.
Tea and biskets.
She could always kick her man in his balls too, but the fact remains that that she is just teasing me too. I'm NOT perfect as a match for her, but I'm also no COMPROMISE prize. It is easy to think about caring for children... What is difficult is loving a very confused woman. So I made it less confusing for her.
I blamed it on the rain and wind.
I think we shared the same thought too...... 'The get out of sex card', is a rare bird. The time is NOT right and totally agreed upon, 'this time'.
3 days to go....................... and I kept my clothes on, and had a water fight with little boys anyways.
Score one for me........ please?
The muddy critters got hosed off, with laughter and the only slice of sunshine 'TODAY' could produce.
Jackie gets a
'Do-me- OVER.' No matter how sexy I think she is... She needs me to be an honorable example, and to do that I must suffer a little bit too......
Jackie's life is up to her to decide, but I'll never be a 'token' friend that she shops with. I hate being so delirious with her physical beauty, and not much else emotionally. Call it coping with a sexual situation, after 45 years of life, and I still can't get a hold of my faults.
Self-distructive, is my MOOD because I hate myself because I have NO agenda. The worst fault I fear the most. I have no DREAMS anymore except having a baby too, but my time is over to be a true mother anymore. This hurts me so much to say, and why Jackie, has such power over me, right now.
Gurrrrrrr She places her baby in my arms, and I melt into a quivering virgin once again......
Wickedly fascinating to me, and I admire her all the same even though I hate my own behavior at the same time..
I melt holding her baby daughter, now more than I ever expected. You don't ever see that on a first date when you are 26 years old.
I'm a grandmother, now but I feel like I'm a foolish ass ,
Around Jackie and her youthful Eggs. I am young again......
She crushes me with EASE when I'm
barefoot with her.
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